Do any of you read Nie Nie? When I see pictures of her family, it makes me baby crazy. Like absolutely baby insane. She had 4 beautiful little nuggets by the time she was 26. I think that sounds awesome. If I told my hubs that was my plan of action, he would probably have a heart attack.
The other day we had some friends over and one of them peppered us with questions about our plan of action. It kind of freaked me out. I was talking to another friend about how I felt uncomfortable when I realized why. I don't even know what our plan is, so how could I talk about it with someone else? Especially someone else who I rarely even see or talk to. I wish I had had enough insight to tell the interrogator that. I would have loved to tactfully say, "You know, interrogator, we are still trying to figure out what we want to do, so I'm not quite ready to talk about it."
Unfortunately, I'm not quite so witty. The thing is, friends, I think I have reached a new place in life. I'm not sure which is better for my life right now; becoming a mommy, or enjoying the married life without love nuggets. I think they both sound lovely. So what I have decided to do is be content with either option. Whatever happens, happens. I'm gonna give up a little control. I'm not trying to make a baby, but if it happens, I will be elated.
I know that some people will think that is irresponsible and stupid. I would have to disagree in this instance. My husband is ok with this no plan of a plan. I am ok with it. So what's wrong with it? Giving up control is a big step for me. It's not something that I usually do. But this time (at least for today), I'm doing it. I'm not really freaking out. I know we are in it together-whatever happens.
So now that I have figured out that I don't have anything figured out, I thought I would share it with you all.
Either way you have to be happy and your super cool butt loving husband has to be just as happy. Planning on having a baby just makes it more stressful. What do you do when you make plans.....You have to live by and follow them. Tracy and I would joke....Let's prectice making a baby and when it happened practice was over and the game began.
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I feel like I haven't been on your blog forever~ I love all your recent posts and I totally know the feeling of interrogation. My hubby and I after one week of "practicing" making a baby ended up pregnant as can be haha and you know it still is uncomfortable when people ask me if it was planned, or what our plan was or is...because honestly I still don't really know. I am three months along and we are still trying to figure this whole thing out that just came on so fast. I think as first time parents this is pretty similar for everyone just because things always go down differently then planned. I wish you both the best and agree that when it happens...practice is over and the game begins...what better way to start!!!
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