Remember that last post.....
Well I did try again.
Try #3 failed. Just like tries #1 and #2.
I am officially *$#&ed up on the inside.
Maybe that's not the medical term for it. I believe the medical term is actually "recurrent abortion".
Isn't that lovely? Luckily, the term "abortion" just means end of pregnancy in the medical community, but I still hate it.
How do I feel? Well, probably how anyone that is totally inept at starting a family feels. I feel like a failure. I feel numb. I feel strong. I feel weak. I feel angry and sad. I feel totally fine and then I feel absolutely wretched. It's a bit of a roller coaster.
Now I just have to get poked and prodded to try to figure out what the problem is. The crazy thing is, life still goes on. It doesn't pause for my bad days. So I just keep going too. I'll be fine. It's pretty amazing what we humans can endure.
I just thought you all might like an update. ...So there it is. I'll post about something a little more upbeat next time, ok?
Monday, February 6, 2012
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