Blessed

I'm sitting here drinking a beer and relaxing after a 3 hour nap. I think that makes me pretty lucky. It makes me think about all of the ways that I am blessed. Last week I felt like crap and I didn't have many nice things to say at all so I just stayed away from my blog. Now, I'm feeling guilty for all those yucky thoughts. I really don't have an excuse for being ungrateful. I have a wonderful life. That's what I have been realizing over the last few days.

I am so grateful for the people who love me.

Sometimes I don't feel that I am worthy of being loved. But, for some silly reason they still do. Even when I'm cranky and mean and moody, they still love me. They may not like me all the time, but love never goes away.

I am still working on living in the moment. I yearn for things I don't have yet. I have to keep reminding myself that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be. Isn't that amazing??

And for something to look forward to, we close on our house two weeks from wednesday. I am so so excited. I can't wait to make it ours.

Also, I heard the following words on friday night: "You're right. I was being childish and I wish I had handled it differently".

I almost passed out and shit my pants when I heard that come out of his mouth. I will never bring it up again. I am more content with that response than I ever imagined. That issue is laid to rest.

Overall, I am blessed.