Big Cloudy Choices

Thank God for the sunshine.

I went on a great walk with my mom this morning. Now I'm clean and warm.

I'm listening to the radio so I don't feel too lonely and it sounds like this...
"If you want more than, why dont you phhhhhhhaisurtbcivetuyrvqeiutytttttttttttt....
jkregtuvwy why dont you say so......"

I'm not sure what's worse, the lonely quiet of an empty house, or the wretched sound coming from my radio.

I'm thinking about choices. Mikey reminded me that I should be grateful for all of the opportunities and choices that I have. I think they are overwhelming, but I know he is right. I think I need to start with the little choices first, and then later I can worry about the big ones. Questions like "What is my plan after graduation?", and "How should I arrange the furniture in our bedroom?", and also, "Do I care if I have kids WAYYY before it's even a thought to any of my friends?"...those questions are just too much. I don't have answers for them. I guess that means I should just wait. For now I can worry about what I'm having for dinner, and which of my clothes should be garage-saled. I can handle those questions. The problem is, I keep letting my brain get clouded up with the big questions, and then I feel like I can't do anything. I lay on my bed in a big overwhelming puddle going over all of the choices and finding no answers. Meanwhile, the laundry is still dirty, my homework is still undone, and there are still plenty of boxes to be unpacked.

Little Steps. Little Steps, Kat.

I think I'm gonna go make my bed....